想你

我想你
能亲口对你说吗？

只能远远望着
只能回忆着你

闻着你给我的东西
回忆你的一却
能让我再次拥有吗？

期望能倒在你怀里
闻着你的气息
听着你的心跳
贪恋你的体温
希望这是永远

这是奢望吗？

是不是我伤人太多了
现在自己在受？

回忆一却跟你的曾经拥有
你的味道
你的温柔
你的体谅
你的谅解
你的理解
你的用心

也许就只有你
我才能拥有
才能觉得幸福

missing u..

I miss u...i hope i can tell u...
like someone, can just miss him...watch him from far...
Dreaming that i can hold his hand tightly..can hug him..feel his heartbeat...
feel secure in his embrace..

Enjoy palpitation every time i think about him...enjoy the fragrance from the his belongings..

THough we cant be together..but..its so subtle..I just miss him so much.

what have i done?

why i always hurt ppl around me? always screw things up...scare all the ppl away from me...
i feel so bad and cry each time i hurt one...rather hurt myself than others..

Or where is my self worth?
what am i?

why i just like to screw things up???haih...i am really lost again...i dun where am i and dunno myself anymore...i am just a piece of shit...freaking crazy cheap slut...

I want to know what love is...by Foreigner

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life theres been heartache and pain
I dont know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

Im gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life theres been heartache and pain
I dont know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Lets talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and Im feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

The other boelyn girl

Nice piece of movie...hmm...lots of things going on my mind...

thinking of whether a woman really can catch the heart and mind of a man?? How to catch? hmm..like forever playing a game with his heart? keep him in suspend? huhuh... If u truly love her,doesn't mean that she is having ur 'heart'? hmm...

Guys always complaining that gals demand too much....but then have u tried enough to put in ur efforts?

In a natural course of a relationship...in the beginning,guys will listen and pamper the gals for everything...and once the gal is totally truly in love with him...nah...start showing his ego...and not that sweet anymore...but,the gal will become more and more sticky and listen everything to the guy..Do the guy still love and cheerful to have such a gf? or just...become a habit of having her as a companion?

What is love? From the bible, I Corinthians 13 ,Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything. Love never fails.

but,how do u feel when u are in love?
Its a feeling,abstracted....cant really describe how it feels...
U will be overwhelmed by a little things that he does,thinking of him,will just bring u joy and smile...though its a bitter thing...U will miss him and have thought bout him whenever u have plans for a minute later..Just cant get rid of him off ur mind....No matter what he did,u still stand by his side,giving him supports and whatever he needs....Give him a big hug and tell him,everything will be fine when he is upset of something...want to hold him tightly in ur embrace...till u have difficulty in grasping air then only will realise that how much u love him...

Its just a piece of thought...though i am still waiting and waiting for the right guy in my life..or maybe i should take the first step?! let see...

Beauty and the beast

The best present i got for this year birthday was a ticket to the Beauty and the Beast musical show..
Its was really awesome and superb..I really lost of words when i watch it...

From the costume to background music...It was just perfect..
Not to mention...those perfect and professional acting...

Watching it,I think most of the gals will think of those Romance..for those singles like me will think....where is my prince charming?? why is it takes so long to appear?:P
haha....

The beauty of the love...spells?maybe...hmmm...its just so Disney...haha

p/s: thanks mel for that...

naked...

ppl said i see through ppl's hearts...mind reader...actually i not really like to do that...
coz i dun like ppl to see through me,don't like the feel of naked...so normally i just like to keep all those understandings bout someone to myself..

some ppl chose to grow in a relationship..
some ppl chose to grow then only get into a relationship..coz too scared to get hurt...

to get hurt to learn to grow or
to be mature enough to take those hurts?

which one? actually either which still will bring u the same consequences,u still will learn..:)

Time flies,everyday life is just different,full of challenges...flash back,and i realized that i have gone through a lot...fall down,learned to stand and keep going.. If i were given an option..maybe i rather choose not to fall so much to learn...but if never fall,for a new generation person like me,do i really will learn so fast?

Ppl fall,coz we are human...we are weak in some way...that is why we need God's mercy,kindness,grace and love to forgive us and to move on and on... I just cant describe how great the God is to me..I have already lost count for how many times he forgave me but yet he is still showing grace and mercy on me...that he always hold me with his big hands..

I am too cautious and conscious bout how i handle things especially in boy gal relationship...being mature? no...i think i am a coward...that to get hurts...i shield myself too nice,hiding myself...hiding my feelings...maybe as days go by,i will forget the true am...doesn't it sound scary?
maybe one day is really someone can see me,the truly am..then i think that's the person is meant for me...

life is like that...

ppl comes and goes..does we ever treasured everyone we have met? have we ever grasped something bout the person we met? from the look till the deeper side?

meeting new guys..interest just grow in a second..start approaching me..and show affections...is that so? they are caught by my physical or mental selfs? I wonder...and i dun believe love at one sight..that's y i start feeling disgusting over all these...maybe all these just due to the effects of alcohol??

what's the most reliable thing that u can hold on in ur life apart from the Almighty God?
Is there something else? friendship? career? relationship? LOVE?? start losing trust in everything...everything is just too abstract to believe in to hold on... I am too shaky recently..working not to lose myself..having hope on tml always...coz i still have a strong belief and trust in GOd..which is the only most thing to trust except myself...

Looking confident always..maybe over confident..but who knows how i feel inside? is it so easy to always confident like u all see?I know...everyone thinking that i am a nice person...with nice personality..just good in everything...but who knows deep down in my heart i am struggling with something? i still finding a way to come out..but i found its not so easy...

Personality....its just like a mixture of drinks..good example is..like a cocktail? there're always a darker shade and a lighter shade in a cocktail..just like that-------->
decorations like cherry and lemon are just to make us look nicer,more presentable...or to cover the weaknesses? once everything is explored, weaknesses are explored and exposed... feel naked and insecure...
or shall i describe myself as a...hmm...plain water? just plan as plain?haha...or an ABC (air batu campur) lots of useless and tasteless things inside? uhuhhuh...u tell me...

maybe its just a meaningless piece...which i also dunno what am i writing...moodless,aimless just to type something to keep me awake to study..haha