life is like that...

ppl comes and goes..does we ever treasured everyone we have met? have we ever grasped something bout the person we met? from the look till the deeper side?

meeting new guys..interest just grow in a second..start approaching me..and show affections...is that so? they are caught by my physical or mental selfs? I wonder...and i dun believe love at one sight..that's y i start feeling disgusting over all these...maybe all these just due to the effects of alcohol??

what's the most reliable thing that u can hold on in ur life apart from the Almighty God?
Is there something else? friendship? career? relationship? LOVE?? start losing trust in everything...everything is just too abstract to believe in to hold on... I am too shaky recently..working not to lose myself..having hope on tml always...coz i still have a strong belief and trust in GOd..which is the only most thing to trust except myself...

Looking confident always..maybe over confident..but who knows how i feel inside? is it so easy to always confident like u all see?I know...everyone thinking that i am a nice person...with nice personality..just good in everything...but who knows deep down in my heart i am struggling with something? i still finding a way to come out..but i found its not so easy...

Personality....its just like a mixture of drinks..good example is..like a cocktail? there're always a darker shade and a lighter shade in a cocktail..just like that-------->
decorations like cherry and lemon are just to make us look nicer,more presentable...or to cover the weaknesses? once everything is explored, weaknesses are explored and exposed... feel naked and insecure...
or shall i describe myself as a...hmm...plain water? just plan as plain?haha...or an ABC (air batu campur) lots of useless and tasteless things inside? uhuhhuh...u tell me...

maybe its just a meaningless piece...which i also dunno what am i writing...moodless,aimless just to type something to keep me awake to study..haha